Straight Jacket

Feeling like I never thought I'd feel. Want to walk away from it all. Want to vanish. Loneliness in a crowd, comforted by solitude. Making no progress with the broken man. Over 2 yrs together and he still projects the behaviors of past women...hurtful, abusive women, on to me. Stuck. No where to turn. Noone to talk to. Wake up to anxiety. Negativity has replaced my peaceful, calm environment. Who am I? Nowhere to escape. He's everywhere. Not dangerous. Sucks my energy, happiness, and oxygen. Always a bantering match...back and forth, back and forth. Need off the crazy train. Involuntarily drawn back in. Where did the man I love go? Was I ever in love? Why do I feel this way? Always ignored and misunderstood.

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Comments (2)

  1. pathos

    He’s trying to break it off with you but you don’t seem to be understanding that the relationship has run its course.

    June 06, 2016
  2. farriberri

    That doesn’t seem to be the case. We live together and are engaged to be married. We have a home and family. We are in counseling, and he tells me everyday that he loves me and wants me to be his wife. He is however a broken man from experiences in his past, and he lives in fear, negativity, and anger much of the time. I appreciate your thoughts. Thank you.

    June 09, 2016