Christmas blessing...

Loud voices clambering to share their thoughts over the others, chidren's sounds, stories and roaring laughter fills the air. Smells of baked goodness, and savory dinner waft through the entire house. Feel the warmth of the love radiate from these...

Happy!

When one can lose themself in another's smile...it's magic. He has the most perfect teeth...straight and white. His lips are plump...not overly. He has a goatee which is manicured precisely. His eyes twinkle when he smiles. Gorgeous eyes that change...

Every nerve tingles...

When he touches me it feels like electricity running through my body. Every nerve tingles in pleasure and stands at attention. It's like a drug...the more I get the more I want. It doesn't matter the intent of the touch. Brushing past me or an...

As it should be.

This is the way life should be. I am so grateful and at peace. This grace is overwhelming, but I am drinking in every moment. Thank you...thank you...thank you Lord!

Humbled...

With every beat of my heart I am thankful to be alive. Thankful for one more precious moment shared with the ones I love. Thankful I was allowed to share more laughs. Thankful for the amazing kiss he planted on me. Thankful for waking this...

I believe...

I put myself out there. I am a better person. I believe in myself now more than ever.  Peace is good.  He called, too. He apologized about 4 times. It is just like I thought...he doesn't know how confused he is...but I do. He'll figure it...

It's been 4 days...

Well...in the last four days I've realized he made a huge mistake...and I'm not at fault.  I gave all of me, and held nothing back. I kept all my promises and never lied.  He even complained once that I wanted him to go to therapy, but I was the...

So much for hope...

Here is the text I got yesterday. Can't help but feel like the amazing, laughter filled day we spent together was so I could help him impress someone else.  "I don't want to lose ur friendship but I have to b honest I met someone from the church...

Simply Amazing!

We spent much of the weekend together. He came over yesterday around 4ish...and we all went to look at Christmas lights...and let K drive. She almost got smacked for not yeilding to another car. She asks can I keep going...and I'm screaming no, no,...

Drowning...

I'm going under. Nothing is right. I can't breathe.  I'm not one for giving up. Don't see land. Physically getting tired...  Need a lifeboat.

He doesn't want me...

Life is so short! With so much death around me, I decided it would be best to just let everyone know how I feel about them. I don't want to ever feel like I missed the opportunity to let someone know how important they are to me. Sooo...we were...

It is so quiet now...

I talk way too much. I am too honest with my feelings. I don't know that I will ever learn to just stop talking. My words tend to overwhelm instead of helping as intended. J's pulling away again. I should have sat quietly. Why is silence so...